A 10-Week Journey That Gently, Quietly Changed My Life
There are some things you read and think, that’s interesting.
And then there are things that meet you at exactly the right moment and quietly say, it’s time.
That’s what The Presence Process felt like for me.
I didn’t rush into it.
In fact, I avoided it for a while.
The book sat in my home for months. I’d glance at it, pick it up, put it back down again. I knew it wasn’t something I could half-do. And if I was going to commit to it, I wanted to do it properly.
Then one day, something shifted.
No big moment. No dramatic realisation. Just a quiet knowing:
Start now.
And I made a promise to myself — if I start this, I finish it.
No matter what.
What This Process Really Is
The Presence Process isn’t about learning something new.
It’s about meeting what’s already inside you.
Unprocessed emotions.
Old memories.
Patterns you didn’t even realise you were carrying.
The structure is simple:
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15 minutes of conscious connected breathing in the morning
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15 minutes again in the evening
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A weekly mantra
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A chapter to read
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And a willingness to feel what comes up, without running from it
That’s it.
But don’t let the simplicity fool you.
It works because it asks you to show up — consistently, honestly, and without distraction.
This is also why I now guide conscious connected breathing inside my membership, Reiki Renewal Rising®. I’ve experienced first-hand how powerful it is when you actually stay with yourself.
A Small Thing That Made a Big Difference
Before I go into each week, I want to share something simple that really helped me stay connected.
Every week, I created a phone wallpaper with that week’s mantra.
Nothing fancy. Just the words.
And every time I unlocked my phone, there it was.
A quiet reminder.
Sometimes I’d forget the mantra completely… then I’d pick up my phone and there it was again, bringing me back.
It sounds small, but it made a difference. It kept me anchored throughout the day. To support your journey, you can download the phone wallpapers I created for each week’s mantra. Download them here.
The Journey (Week by Week)
I’ll be honest with you — this wasn’t a straight, smooth path.
Some weeks felt light.
Some weeks felt heavy.
Some weeks I questioned everything.
But looking back, every single part mattered.
Week 1 – Mantra: This Moment Matters
This was the beginning of awareness.
I started noticing my thoughts more. My reactions. The way my mind constantly moves away from the present moment.
Midway through the week, I became more emotional. More sensitive. Things started to surface.
And then something unexpected happened — I developed pain in my right elbow.
It was inflamed, uncomfortable, and completely new.
At the time, I didn’t fully understand it. But I could feel something was shifting.
Week 2 – Mantra: I Recognize My Reflections and Projections
This week changed how I saw everything.
Instead of looking outwards and reacting, I started asking:
What is this showing me?
I also began thinking a lot about responding instead of reacting. That question alone started to slow me down.
Physically, my body continued to respond. I had a cold that came quickly and left just as quickly. Then came body aches — especially in my legs.
It felt like something was moving through me.
Not comfortable… but purposeful.
Week 3 – Mantra: I Choose to Respond
This week was emotional.
There was a point where I felt low, irritated, and honestly… a bit lost.
I remember thinking, is this even working?
But I stayed with it.
And then, towards the end of the week, something happened that I’ll never forget.
After a session, I sat quietly, just being with myself.
Memories of my adoptive mum came up.
Our relationship had been difficult. There were things I didn’t receive, things that hurt, things that stayed with me.
And then this thought came:
If she came back now… I would know how to love her.
That moment stopped me.
Because I realised — I had forgiven her.
Not because I tried to. Not because I told myself I should.
But because something in me had softened.
Week 4 – Mantra: I Feel Unconditionally
This week was… strange, in the best way.
During the breathing sessions, I kept drifting. Almost like I was losing consciousness for a few seconds at a time.
At first, it frustrated me. I wanted to be fully present.
But then I remembered — this isn’t about control. It’s about allowing.
And then came one of the most powerful moments of the entire process.
I had a sharp pain in my upper back. Very specific. Very familiar, though I didn’t realise it at first.
I sat with it.
And a memory came.
I was a child again, standing at the sink for hours, washing dishes after guests had left. My back aching. Crying quietly so no one would hear me.
That exact pain.
That exact spot.
I stayed with it. I felt it.
And within hours… the pain disappeared.
Just like that.
Week 5 – Mantra: I Am Innocent
This week was quieter, but just as revealing.
I attended a retreat and found myself comparing myself to other women.
Their confidence. Their ease. Their comfort in their bodies.
And I felt envy.
Not a loud, obvious kind. A quiet one.
Instead of pushing it away, I sat with it.
And I realised — there were parts of me that still didn’t feel safe in my own body.
My relationship with food, with weight, with self-image… it all started to come into focus.
Week 6 – Mantra: I Integrate Charged Emotion
This was the hardest week.
I didn’t want to do the process.
I felt triggered constantly. Small things felt big. Emotions felt close to the surface all the time.
I questioned everything.
Why am I doing this?
Is it even working?
But I kept going.
And looking back, that was the work.
Not the insights. Not the breakthroughs.
Just… not giving up.
Week 7 – Mantra: I Feel Safe Now
This week started with something different — a water practice.
Sitting in a bath. No phone. No distractions. Just being there.
I didn’t expect much.
But within minutes, I felt emotions rising.
I cried.
Not because of a story. Just… release.
Something softened.
The breathwork afterwards felt deeper. More open.
But I was also exhausted this week. Deeply tired in a way that felt emotional as much as physical.
Week 8 – Mantra: I Forgive Myself
Something shifted here.
I felt lighter.
I slept better.
And I had a realisation that stayed with me.
That people don’t act from love when they don’t feel it — they act from a lack of it.
And suddenly, I could see people differently.
Not as wrong. Not as hurtful.
But as people asking for love in the only way they know how.
That softened something in me.
There were people I thought I had forgiven… and I realised I hadn’t fully.
But now I could.
Week 9 – Mantra: I Love Myself Unconditionally
This week went deep.
My relationship with my body came up strongly.
The weight gain, the cycles, the frustration.
And then I remembered my adoptive mum again.
How she spoke about her body. How she compared herself. How she asked me, as a child, to reassure her.
And I could see how much of that I had absorbed.
It wasn’t just mine.
It was learned.
There was also a moment in the cinema — the sound overwhelmed me, and I started crying.
I stayed.
I didn’t leave.
And afterwards, something shifted.
Noise didn’t affect me in the same way anymore.
Week 10 – Mantra: I Appreciate What I Am
This week felt… calm.
No big releases. No dramatic moments.
Just presence.
Being with my family. Sitting at the table and really listening. Eating slowly. Looking into my children’s eyes when they spoke.
Simple things.
But they felt different.
More real.
What Changed the Most
If I had to put it into one sentence, it would be this:
I respond more than I react.
And I notice it.
That awareness is everything.
What Life Looks Like Now
I’ve had a morning routine for a few years now.
But something shifted after this process.
Now, I’ve woven everything together into something that feels really aligned:
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Conscious connected breathing
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Meditation
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Visualisation
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Ho’oponopono
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Journaling
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Self-Reiki
All within about 45 minutes to an hour.
It doesn’t feel like a routine I have to do.
It feels like something I get to do.
Something that supports me.
Something that keeps me connected.
Coming Back to My Intention
A few days before I started this journey, I sat down and wrote an intention.
It was the 29th of January 2026, and I didn’t overthink it. I just wrote what felt true in that moment:
“I enter The Presence Process with the intention to come home to my body and life, allowing health, freedom and abundance to unfold naturally as I become fully present.”
I’ve just read that back now… and I have goosebumps.
It feels emotional, in the most grounding way.
Because I can honestly say — I feel like I’ve done exactly that.
Not perfectly. Not in a “finished” way.
But in a real, lived, embodied way.
I feel more present in my body than I have in a long time.
More connected to my life, moment by moment.
There’s a sense of coming home… not to something new, but to something that was always there, just waiting for my attention.
And what’s beautiful is this — I didn’t force any of it.
Health, freedom, abundance… they haven’t arrived in one big dramatic moment. They’ve started unfolding quietly, naturally, as a result of being more present.
That intention wasn’t just words I wrote before starting.
It became something I’ve actually begun to live.
The Most Important Thing I Want to Say
If you’re reading this and thinking:
This sounds like a lot…
I understand.
I thought the same.
But here’s what I learned:
Don’t think about the 10 weeks.
Don’t plan it. Don’t overthink it.
Just think about today.
Do your morning session.
Do your evening session.
That’s it.
Tomorrow will come when it comes.
And don’t wait for the perfect moment.
There isn’t one.
I started before holidays, events, travel… and I still did it.
In hotel rooms.
In the car.
There is always a way.
If You Feel Called to This Work
Trust that feeling.
You don’t need to understand it fully.
You just need to start.
And if you feel called to this work, this is exactly the kind of space I hold inside my membership, Reiki Renewal Rising®.
We already explore conscious connected breathing together, along with energy healing and emotional integration practices.
And soon, I’ll be guiding a full 10-week Presence Process journey inside the membership.
I’ll be walking alongside you through each week — holding the space, guiding the breathwork, and helping you stay committed, especially on the days that feel hard.
Because if there’s one thing I’ve learned from doing this myself, it’s that support and accountability make all the difference.
You don’t have to do this alone.
Final Thought
There’s a line from the book that stayed with me:
“As we reawaken, Let us gently leave the bed, Quietly tiptoe out of the darkened room And into the morning light. Let us play here. Let us not shake others in their beds. They are sleeping because they require rest. When they reawaken and hear us playing, They shall come and join us.”
We don’t wake others up.
We just… live awake.
And when they’re ready, they’ll find their way too.
That’s what this process has given me.
Not perfection.
Not answers.
Just… presence.
And honestly, that’s changed everything.
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